Upgrades and other matters

So I raided yesterday. Logged on in time for a Naxx25, which I think is the first raid I have been on since the end of April. I went on 3, maybe 4 (but I think only 3) Ulduar runs, and then knocked the whole thing on the head for a while. So it was a bit of an achievement to actually go again. One of the things which had switched me off raiding was the expectation that I would set the healing all the time, and have people looking to me always to organise things. Before Gruul and Hyjal I'd never done that, and I don't really enjoy it, to be honest. Someone always has a better idea of doing things, and half-way through you feel the urge to should "Just because I say so! Do it!" because actually one of the reasons you sometimes give people non-traditional healing assignments for their class is because you don't trust them to do what their class does best, because they just don't play that way. One thing our guild has always been good at is not forcing people to play in a certain style. Which is fine, and good for a casual raiding guild, but within that, I've never thought it was fair to then not recognise that if you aren't requiring people to spec a certain way and play a certain way that you, as guildies, need to play to their strengths, rather than accentuate their weaknesses. If that makes sense. I think it does.

Anyway, I went last night, and was really pleased that after such a long gap (for me; remember I don't play computer games), that I pretty much rocked. If that sounds big-headed, I don't care. Healing is what I enjoy, and I do it pretty well. I don't think it did me any harm at all to be second on the meters, and 5th on the overheal (and I know, I know, I know, healing meters are not all. They do not say everything about a player, but I am expressly talking about how they were for my first raid back. So they have that value to me). And I got upgrades. I have been after a better hat than my Nexus blue one for ages, and I got the tier 7.25 piece (which means that I now have 5 tier pieces /flex). J won the roll for it, but very kindly passed to me, since he had the 7.10, and I didn't even have an epic there. I still need a replacement for my crappy green trinket though, but druid trinkets are not very common. And I got a better belt, which is also nice.

I am also doing the tournament dailies because when the patch comes it will open up new ways of instancing, and will have the same instances available for 5, 10 and 25 man. I like that as an idea. But I think they are only available once you've finished all that malarky. And, of course, there are pets to be had there. I have the Darnassus and Exodar ones already...

So, other things. I was wondering whether it is possible ever not to slightly edit oneself in communicating (in writing or otherwise) with people. I sadly don't think it is. It is always the case, I guess, that we want to appear in our best light, or that there are things which are so personal that we can only think them to ourselves. Sometimes I think that the way of editing ourselves though (and I am sure that this is not particular to me at all) means that, by definition, there are only a few people who can really, truly know us. There are only a very few people who I have a light editing-touch with, but even with them there are areas where I will not go, and hope that they don't stumble across them, or slight diversions which I make so that they don't stumble there. On one level that makes me sad, but on one level I quite enjoy the fact that I control what information people have about me. But I do assume that this is the same for everyone. I very much hope that it is.